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1 Tue July 07 2009 - 19:05:44 Fullname: Flaming Arrows Email: SuspendedHeir@hotmail.com Where are you from?: Homepage name: Homepage: http:// Reference: Just Surfed On It! How good do you think this site is: No comments Comments: Happy Birthday! I hope that you are enjoying it and that you get what you wanted for your special day. Do you feel any older? I hope not. Congratulations for graduating from college as well as getting accepted into grad school. I'm proud of you. I'm glad that you still are part of the envoy team for international relations. I was watching PTI some time back and they were talking about whether or not you would come out of retirement. I thought that was interesting. I miss seeing you skate. I have plenty of tapes of you skating though. The last time I saw you was in my dream the morning of the 13th of last month. I still love you, and who you are as a person. People probably don't understand my love for you. Yet when God places someone in your life for a special purpose you have to follow through with it. He lead me on missions that seemed fruitless at the time. Over time I've realized how much I've grown because of it. Like my first trip to New York even though I started toward D.C. Before I started that trip I remember that I was allowed to make a rainbow and what looked like a funnel within the clouds right before Mother's Day. Or on my way from Baltimore to Philadelphia the dream I had of the Chinese man saying that he worked for Ananda Lewis. I think it was that he said that he worked for her. I had stopped replaying those memories in my mind years ago. What I do know is that God was at work on my behalf and I was taken to New York that next morning with a van full of Chinese people from Philadelphia. I was crazy for Ananda and still love her. I would like to meet her again even though I didn't see her on any of the trips to New York; as well as Jennifer Lopez. Even though I felt abandoned I still knew that God was still at work because of the dream. Then God sent me Jane Doe when I was in need. I hope and pray that I get to meet her again. I look at my life today and thank God for all He's done for me. I never could have imagined that God would have allowed me to do the works that I've done with the clouds. I sometimes still keep my head to the sky even though I haven't done anything with the clouds in over a year. I say allowed me to do because I realize it is not my power that does it. I am nothing without God Almighty the Father, the Lord Jesus Christ my saviour, and the Holy Spirit They have placed within me. And when I say God, I'm referring to the Holy Trinity. Many people may have seen the results of what I was allowed to do with the clouds. Though I've only shown one person in person. There are a few people I'd like to show what I am allowed to do. Even though God allows me to work with the clouds, I have no power over the air. Years ago, I use to think that I saw things that said that I was the Lord. I didn't believe it at first. Then the more that I thought I'd see things, then I began to think that it was true. I even thought when I looked at Revelations 1:7 where it says , he cometh with clouds, that it might have something to do with me. Over time I've had the opportunity to regain my faculties and to see that I am not the Lord. I'm glad that I've come to that realization. Before I didn't realize how far gone I was, and that I had lost my mind. I know that that effected some of the things I had seen within the clouds. Another facet to my life where I had lost my mind was with the masturbating. I've stopped doing that and I can't remember the last time I did it. Reflecting on those past years I concerned myself with who I masturbated to thoughts of. That had changed with the two movies I had seen, Ann Patrice, and then the dream of Mars. I thought that there would be an exception for me based off of the dream I had with Mars and then seeing her that day. Then things just got carried away. I know that I am not without sin. Even though I stopped doing it in an attempt to be more righteous, I'd rather see someone masturbate then to have sex with someone who is undeserving of that individual. I'd rather see someone masturbate then to see that person have an encounter that would lead to pregnancy, or disease; or commit some crime of the sexual nature. I also feel remissed for some of the things I put on this site that is inappropriate for children. Or all of the kissing and telling stories. And speaking of kissing, I didn't kiss the hair of the person that I said lied on me. I did smell her hair. I thought then that it would sound more romantic, and for what. I was wrong for that and I asked God for forgiveness. Throughout my life I've had many mates. I was addicted to sex and I also was addicted to masturbating. I lost my virginity in the 7th grade. Once I had it I only wanted more. Having sex that first time wasn't as daunting to myself as when she and I thought she was pregnant. Then I was left thinking of selling my bike to get the money for an abortion. Not that the bike was worth that much. I was young then and I don't believe in abortion. I can't imagine life without those that were born in my family to teenage mothers. In the beginning hearing of the pregnancy is unfortunate; though it is a blessing from God still. Before I broke up with the love of my life, I had a feeling within that God would make me a leader on a grand scale. To be the one to change the status quo of the way things were; and the direction things were going for Black people. Though reaching out and changing the direction of Black people was my main objective in the beginning after the break up; I now know that I will have an influence upon many peoples. I determined years ago that the love of my life was my high school sweetheart. She was in my dream three mornings ago. The dream dealt with another woman as well. I still love my high school sweetheart and I hope she still loves me even though she's married. I'm not referring as in a relationship way. I'm referring in the sense of a friend. I've never loved any woman the way that I loved her; and I may never love that strongly again. She was going to be my wife. I thought that she slept with one of my friends after our relationship. That's why I said the things that I said about her. That was do to some of the things I saw in the clouds that wasn't accurate. The other woman that I considered as possibly being the love of my life, I still love her as well. Though not in a relationship sense. I hope that she loves me as well. Things haven't turned out the way I had thought they would. That's good because I wouldn't have been ready. I'm still not prepared. Things taking time is not isn't bothering me. One thing is that I would like to have someone in my life. It's been 10 years today since I have kissed someone on the lips besides my mother, great aunts, or my daughter when she was younger. The 17th will be 10 years since I've had sex. When I prayed to God back when I started all of these years of abstinence, I wanted to be a positive example within the community by being a leader. Especially to the youth for them to see my example and want to emulate it. People would sometimes call me Martin Luther King Jr., Malcom, or Farrakhan. One person even named me in the form of a super hero as Community Man. Yet I felt when I prayed that if I could give of myself, by refraining from my greatest pleasure, which was sex, that not only would I be rewarded in the end; that others would also find themselves in the end as well if they did the same. I felt it would cut teenage pregnancy, abortions, and the spreading of disease. As well as inept feelings and confusion embedded in one's mind, from the constant barrage of sexually explicit connotations that are both overt and subliminal in todays society. For someone to say it's alright if one decides they don't need to have sex to feel important, empowered, or gratification of oneself. Sex should not be the sole objective of being in a relationship with someone. Granted, sex may feel good, yet all the baggage that is accumulated when considering the myriad examples of debilitating neglect to your spirit that often occurs with having sex as a teenager or as an adult that isn't involved in a relationship based on love. When I made my committment nearly 10 years ago, I was tired of just dealing with the flesh, and not the whole person which includes ones spirit. Something else I'd like to say is that I was watching God vs. Satan on the History Channel and it was speaking of Jerusalem being the stage for the epic battle between God and Satan. Then it spoke of the Dead Sea Scrolls being written by a devout tribe. Then speaking of Satan's growing power and the coming battle. Then it showed soldiers, tall trees with what looked like volcanic ash rushing through it, then a city with clouds moving over it, Jerusalem, Pittsburgh, trees again with the full force of ash or debri moving through it, a missile being shot, a city with smoke in one section with the result of I know not, then a missile, people walking on sand, Jerusalem shaking, natural disasters like volcanic, what looked like the weather caused by a hurricane, debri from weather that looked like from a tornado. I think that was all of it, and in that order. Pittsburgh was shown only once throughout the show and in between all of those other things. It was a picture of downtown and there looked like there was a ladder that was horizontal that was being raised. I don't know what it was, it could have been a crane. I bring that up because I don't think they were trying to imply anything by putting Pittsburgh within it, but I do believe that Pittsburgh was put in there for a reason. I have great love for the city of Pittsburgh. Speaking of natural disasters, I had a dream this morning where I had asked a White guy I was cool with if his friend had some food. He said yeah, then the dream changed to me being in a field playing football. The field was where I went to elementary school until the third grade. I looked toward the southeast and saw a tornado. Then that one eventually rose back into the clouds and there was one that formed to the right of where the other one was. Then I saw another funnel cloud about to drop. Then someone woke me up out of my sleep. That was the first time I can remember seeing tornadoes in my dream since the 90's. I think that I had influenced a tornado before even though it was indirect contact. I saw the shaping of a tornado before. Though I don't think that I had anything to do with that one. That was the first time that I think I was actually involved with playing football in a dream. I spoke of when I was playing running back in a dream and woke up right before I hit. Football was one of my first loves. I was good in high school and showed promise before I injured my knee. After that I'd miss tackles and was no where near the player I once was. I had talked bad about the coach before yet I realize that I should have been happy for the playing time I received because if I had been the coach I probably wouldn't have played myself. It just wasn't meant to be. I guess God has provided me another field to play on. I want to say that I didn't have anything to do with an initiation that I once said I was involved in. I still want to meet Jimmy Carter one day. I also realized that I had nothing to do with the hostages being released, or anything else at time. I also hope that people won't look at me as though I was insensitive for being upset when the news broke with the passing of the Pope when Ralph Sampson was about to be shown as the greatest college basketball player on the show I was watching. God knows that I shed tears over the Pope's passing. I also decided that my middle name will be as when my mother named me with 5 letters. The things I've spoken of I felt needed to be addressed. I know it's been years since I've posted a message to you. I hope that all is well with you and your family. I also hope that you enjoy your birthday. Do you think Michelle has a good shot at the Olympic Gold in 2002?: Who are your favorite figure skaters?: 2 Thu May 01 2008 - 08:02:33 Fullname: Amir Email: amir@prodigy.net Where are you from?: USA Homepage name: percocet dose Homepage: http://rec50.as.ro/tadalafil/street-price-of-tadalafil.html Reference: Just Surfed On It! 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Do you think Michelle has a good shot at the Olympic Gold in 2002?: Who are your favorite figure skaters?: 3 Tue April 10 2007 - 20:48:20 Fullname: Flaming Arrows Email: Where are you from?: Homepage name: Homepage: http:// Reference: Just Surfed On It! How good do you think this site is: No comments Comments: Hello and what's up Michelle? I just want to say hi and let you know that I still think of you and love you. And that I still continue to pray for you every day. As well as for my daughter, mother, Aaliyah (A to the 4th Power), Ananda Lewis (A to the 6th Power), Left Eye (Rainbow), and another woman. I hope and pray that things are going great for you. Such as life with your family, school, your position as a spokeswoman representing our nation, and skating. I hope and pray that you are single and not mingling while waiting for me on the other side. At least that is what I hope and pray. That you will prove yourself worthy. Me, I'm still abstaining. I hope and I pray that I can trust you with all of the things that I've told you through the years; and that it won't go any further. That's the same with Ananda as well. I miss those days and feel as though I don't have any one to talk to about many things. So I've been doing a lot of reading; especially my Bible. I don't practice with the clouds anymore. The evening of the Woman's Final Four here, I was allowed to clear the sky of clouds over downtown and the immediate surrounding area before the sun set. I don't know if anyone noticed it or not. You were in a dream of mine a couple, or few months back. I don't feel like telling it though. I had a dream of Aaliyah after that. She entered a church I was in that really isn't a church, but a large house that's like a mansion. Before the dream ended I told her how I follow my dreams and how they lead me. I can't remember my exact words that came next that exemplified what I was feeling and the hope that I had held towards her. Then she and I kissed and then I woke up. The touch of her lips on mine was so real and as though it really happened. It was good to see her within my dream. I had been waiting a long time to see her again. The last dream I had of her was when I had kissed her on her butt. I don't know if I will be sending anymore messages but I have to go. I hope you continue to be successful and I love you Do you think Michelle has a good shot at the Olympic Gold in 2002?: Who are your favorite figure skaters?: 4 Wed September 27 2006 - 02:22:01 Fullname: vanessnae nicole gentle Email: vannesnae2000@yahoo.com Where are you from?: california Homepage name: msn Homepage: http:// Reference: Just Surfed On It! How good do you think this site is: Well done!!! Comments: i like Michelle Kwan she is the best ice scater ever please amail me a picture of her and i would like a story a bout too please. Do you think Michelle has a good shot at the Olympic Gold in 2002?: yes Who are your favorite figure skaters?: just Michelle Kwan 5 Thu July 20 2006 - 21:15:56 Fullname: Skaught Ashton Email: skaught_ashton@telusplanet.net Where are you from?: Tampa Homepage name: http://alemed.t35.com/actonel/actonel-and-calcium.html Homepage: http://alemed.t35.com/actonel/actonel-and-calcium.html Reference: not now How good do you think this site is: not now Comments: Hey I found your page while surfing the web, just figured to say nice site! 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